I think i've realised...

..that there's no point in running away.

or that if i do need to run away, i should run away somewhere useful, where i'd learn something,

..that if i decide to look into whats going on beyond this Island, i'll come across a lot of sad, depressing stuff. but the happy, uplifting stuff will be so much more happy and uplifting because it's real, it happened, it had consequences, it left marks.