.. Says Gillian Mckeith!

But some foods are just too darn delicious! So everyone's going on at us to be healthy and stuff which means cutting out the take-aways and the overeating of carbs andd - blah dii doo da but the list really does seem to go on.. And on and on!

So I like chicken fillet burgers and chips , fish and chips (chips seem to be becoming a common factor but I actually like them more as a accompaniment than on their own), pizza, sharwarmas (have to be lamb), lamb chops (any shape or form) andddd more and more and more!

Didn’t go to work today so actually had a fairly free-ish day. It was productive.

Firstly I finished reading the Qur’an (I read the latter half with the English translation as well as a commentary – which I was very proud of – oh and it was only latter half because my pops gave me this specific Qur’an when I was around half way). I actually had a buzzing feeling when I read the End-of-Qur’an Du’a and am hoping to start it again tomorrow, after I pray Fajr which means that the next time I read the Du’a it’ll be when I’ve finished reading the Arabic, the English, anddd the commentary InshaAllah! (Big accomplishment.. for me anyway)

Secondly - wait we'll get there in a bit.. I hope

At 00.18 (today so before Sehri and after Taraweeh) my phone started to vibrate and the caller? Well exactly. Weirdly I had the number saved under ‘?!’ – Ok somewhere at the back of my mind I vaguely remember saving the number as that but I actually have no idea why. So the detective in me gets to work (a mixture of, lets say Columbo, Randall and Hopkirk (Deceased) and of course Monk – tell me you watch or at least have heard of these!)

Ok so, my analysis:

The question mark ‘?’ (Visual aid) suggests I don’t know who the number belongs to while the exclamation mark ‘!’ (It’s helping right?) has connotations of a warning perhaps? Or perhaps importance. Although if the latter was the case wouldn’t I have simply typed the persons name?

You know how Romanticism was like a big nature-love fest? (Blake, Wordsworth etc etc going on and on about nature and its beauty in their poems) or Keats’s description of a female, well recently I realised that nature really is pretty wonderful.

Like did you know one of the signs of Allah’s handiwork (maybe that’s not the right word?) is the concept of nature? Of course you did and so did I. But I read in the Qur’an (this is where it all began – naturally!) specifics like the way a tree’s leaves turn brown or fall off and how it fantastically blossoms again and I realised mannn the colour of leaves and leaves in general are really awesome, what with their different shapes and sizes and smells and um stuff..

For the past year (and a bit) I’ve worked as a Jewellery Sales Consultant – gold, silver, diamonds you name it we’ve got it (no mention of who the ‘we’ is – they promote themselves enough) Anyway I’ve seen people buy for the sake of buying, seriously – what’s another £200 here and there eh?

I must admit I do find myself amazed (and perhaps a little envious?) that they just splash their money around with no guilt! (no thought of the consequences: like not being able to afford something necessary – for many this is usually rent or food or something. For me it’s not being able to afford My Big Plan – don’t ask!)

So yeh I wake up this morning and boom it's the evening again - does anyone else feel like the days seem to roll into one big blur? Well occasionally at least? Those are the times when it feels like I’m in a bubble and not really feeling what I’m doing but somehow it happens anyway.. Seriously weird.

Anyway (I use that word a lot I know, along with “basically” – when I know what I’m about to say isn’t going to be ‘basic’ at all – I like to explain myself thoroughly) Let me start again: anywayyy I’ve decided that I don’t want that to happen anymore so I try to make myself do something memorable in the day so when I think back to what I did – I can actually remember! (Although this happens when I can remember to do something memorable – confusing I know).

I'm from London - from the west side (I like to make that distinction, much of the east side is far too 'ghetto wannabe', here it’s just 'ghetto wannabe' whereas there it's just overboard)

Almost everyday i search through my memories of school/6th form (or college if you prefer) and i wish that i was back there! It's kind of annoying actually not being able to live in the present and instead living in the past. Sometimes i find myself trying to relive those times through my younger cousins - seriously! Gosh i must be so annoying to them, i never stop telling them that school is the best time of a persons life and how they should make the most of it and be who they want to be and just really live it (obviously ignoring the fact - or fatal flaw? that i've just started my twenties and don't really have much 'experience' of life!)

There are many things that are unseen in this world, if I asked you what they were, you could quite easily name a few – the air, gravity, our voices, but what about something unseen that exists only if you know where to look for it or perhaps, unseen because they’re unknown.

I think that one of the main rules in life is to question everything. What I mean is, if you’re at school, university, work (for those of you who do work) or even hanging out with your friends and you don’t understand something, ask - even if it means that everyone will laugh at you. Because at the end of it, the day you ask, is the day you’ll know.

Hopefully once you’re in the habit of not accepting everything blindly, interesting answers will emerge, bringing you out of the darkness and into the light.