Faith can be such a fragile thing. A belief system that not only influences our daily lives but provides a sense of place among things. So when it comes under attack, we can become shaken to the core.
Such events can be anything from a bereavement or illness which can have two reactions. Either a chances to become alot closer to Allah (swt) or more commonly an instinct based reaction which causes us to push away and even trigger a reassessment of the nature of our world or atlest the world we thought we lived in. At which point even a long standing faith may no longer bring comfort.
Even a long-standing faith may no longer bring comfort. This is more likely if the faith is based on self-esteem, status or a sense of belonging, whereas a more intrinsic faith based on well thought-out ideas will be more enduring.
Either way it can lead to depression, loneliness or even anger. The way we experience and precieve things can come under threat. We may even distance ourselves from the people we care about the most. Its like having the rug pulled our from under our feet, which can be both frightening and isolating. How can we go on when everything you believed in, something that once gave you purpose, a sense of belonging, a place in the world is suddenly pulled away.
When this happens we may feel like we've been let down by our belief system, that its failed to prevent something bad happening to us or those we care about. Which can make it hard to reconcile in the belief system with the unfairness and injustice of it all.
IMO the most important thing at such a time is to be kind to yourself and avoid trying to work out why things had to play out the way they did. Something that be really hard, especially if you're like me and over analyse the hell outta everything. If its unclear for a while, try and be patient and go with it.
Realize that you've been through A LOT and allow yourself to grieve for what you've lost. If you're at this point then remember its probably something that meant a lot to you and provided some sort of stability.
Talk if you think it will help lessen the pain to get it out. Confide in someone trustworthy and compassionate. But dont try and reboud towards an alternative belief system straught away to fill the gap. Give it time to re-evaluate your needs. And remember you are not alone.
If your life has been pretty sweet up until now then give it time. Sh1t will happen lol