I went doc today, and came back with "everything fine". realised i wasnt so happy about this then caught myself in that state and told myself off.

We need to wake up from this "oh, this useless doc didnt give me anything/oh! he said im fine and ive got nothing wrong" etc...

The doc is the doc and he/she knows what he/she is doing (...)

If we're fine, then we should say ALHAMDOULILLAH, thank Allah for this health so many people around us dont have.

not getting meds/not being sent to pharmacy/not having "something wrong" are blessings. lets keep that in mind and stop thinking we've got something wrong, (and feeling annoyed/upset/angry) when we're told we haven't.

Yesterday when praying i had like this muscle spasm in my back. i know it was just a lil pain whatver, but my thoughts went to my spinal cord, to paralysis and to never being able to do sujood ever again. scary thought.

we're not grateful for what we have. and we will never be able to be grateful enough, ever.

Remember: you can make sujood.